Aphantasia – To have a blind mind’s eye

Do you ever find yourself daydreaming?  If I ask you to imagine a beach, a mountain or a three-legged lizard juggling bananas, can you do it?   Most of us can to varying degrees.  Some of us can picture it as clear as if it were happening right in front of our eyes whilst others have a more vague ability.

Would you believe that scientists have recently been working on the relatively recent discovery of people suffering from Aphantasia.  That is the inability to see with your mind.  Such people can’t picture the face of their friend.

Intriguingly, such people also can’t imagine sounds or voices.  They don’t seem to have the natural recoil we would have if we think of snakes or being in a car crash but similarly, they also don’t seem to enjoy the simple but nice pleasures such as imagining jumping into a warm bed or tucking into their favourite food.

Doing something many of us learn when little such as imaging counting sheep in our heads is not just beyond them but apparently many such sufferers have no idea that the rest of us have such basic abilities.  If they dream, they don’t ever remember what they were dreaming about.

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I can only imagine that such condition makes life a little more boring and it is nice that I have finally found a tiny group of people who I have an advantage over being an asthmatic, flat-footed visually impaired introvert.   Maybe part of the reason that I am more than happy with my own company is that I have a fantastic imagination.  This can be a good thing and a terrible thing but it is never a boring way of life.

I can imagine anything and everything and often even when doing something very real in the real world end up thinking of something much more interesting and diverting.  At one place I used to work, the weekly and mind-numbingly long and boring meetings were agony for the others who sat in them.  Not for me, I used to often imagine asteroid impacts coming in through the roof with little aliens emerging and zapping people with laser guns.   Or what would happen if 1 million Mongol horseman suddenly appeared from the 13th century into modern day London.  What would happen?  Where would they go, could they defeat a modern army?  All much more interesting than the progress report happening right in front of me.  I had hundreds of these things going on in my head at any given moment and I can see them, hear them, smell them and feel them.  I’ve never really experienced a giant hole appearing in the ground with giant dinosaurs appearing out of them, ripping off the roof of the factory and horribly devouring all the people I didn’t like but I do in my head.   To not have that must be a little  bit boring.

As for dreams, I could sell tickets to my dreams and make a small fortune.  Some of them are really scary, some of them are funny and I laugh at the jokes later in the day.  Some are like movies and have a certain way of being filmed.  Period ones are sometimes in black and white or even sepia.  Some have special effects and are on an epic scale.  Other times I might just be a mouse scurrying in the undergrowth or wind blowing through the branches of a forest.  The amount of times I spend much of the day humming the original music in my dreams is unreal.

It’s fair to say that often my minds eye is better than real-life and sometimes I do have problems distinguishing between real events and imagined ones.  I’ll leave it for another time to tell you of that time I was out partying all night with Beyonce 🙂

Maybe it is because I’m very creative and of course enjoy my writing.  I have more ideas in my head than I know what to do with.  As Terry Pratchett once said, there is no such thing as writers block and its true, I just don’t know what that is.  There is time-block, there is real-life intrusions block, there is even I am physically too tired to write block but not writers block.

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The BBC have an online test for Aphantasia and surprise-surprise, whatever Aphantasia is, I have the opposite.  I scored 40 out of 40 which means I have hyperphantasia or exceptionally strong visual imagery.  You can take the test for yourself here and whilst you do that, I have just imagined there is £1million downstairs but oh-no a 6 legged crab alien with the face of a donkeys behind is waiting to jump… well scuttle me at the bottom of the stairs.  Thankfully in this world, I have Force-like powers and have slammed him into the kitchen worktop ready to make crabsticks out of him for my salad later.

Anyway where were we?  That’s the problem with hyperphantasia, you can get distracted very eas… hey did I ever tell you of that time when I got flushed down a toilet only to end up on an Australian beach where having had my legs eaten off by a crocodile, I was rescued by a kindly Japanese man who informed me I was in WW2 before skewering me with his bayonet?  I still remember that dream when I was 7.

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Last week, the world was rather taken by storm by a chap called Blake Ross who had lived his entire life suffering from Aphantasia and not realising that most of the rest of us have the ability to visually, audibly or any other sense-bly imagine things.  It obviously hadn’t hurt Blake one bit as he has a very successful career with Facebook as well as being involved in creating the Firefox web browser.  Funnily enough, a significantly higher proportion of his friends also suffer from Aphantasia and it has come to be believed that such people are very strong when it comes to logic and methodological reasoning which I guess is what you need in a Facebook designer though perhaps the lack of imagination explains the flaws with Facebook too.

As I wait for the professor at Exeter University to email me back with some tests, tests which my hyperphantasia laden mind imagines could either be really painful or perhaps more excitingly, somehow send me to another time, world or dimension, you might want to read on as Blake Ross experiences the revelation that there a whole  a whole side of human existence which is unavailable to him, even more so considering Blake also enjoys writing too.   You can read rather large extracts of his post below.  BTW he talks about having a Milk Voice rather than visual imagery in his head or even hearing voices in his head and the whole concept is so new to him he didn’t realise that most of us don’t know what a Milk Voice is or indeed have a Milk Voice but its obviously important to him.

 

I just learned something about you and it is blowing my goddamned mind.
This is not a joke. It is not “blowing my mind” a la BuzzFeed’s “8 Things You Won’t Believe About Tarantulas.” It is, I think, as close to an honest-to-goodness revelation as I will ever live in the flesh.
Here it is: You can visualize things in your mind.
If I tell you to imagine a beach, you can picture the golden sand and turquoise waves. If I ask for a red triangle, your mind gets to drawing. And mom’s face? Of course.
You experience this differently, sure. Some of you see a photorealistic beach, others a shadowy cartoon. Some of you can make it up, others only “see” a beach they’ve visited. Some of you have to work harder to paint the canvas. Some of you can’t hang onto the canvas for long. But nearly all of you have a canvas.
I don’t. I have never visualized anything in my entire life. I can’t “see” my father’s face or a bouncing blue ball, my childhood bedroom or the run I went on ten minutes ago. I thought “counting sheep” was a metaphor. I’m 30 years old and I never knew a human could do any of this. And it is blowing my goddamned mind.
If you tell me to imagine a beach, I ruminate on the “concept” of a beach. I know there’s sand. I know there’s water. I know there’s a sun, maybe a lifeguard. I know facts about beaches. I know a beach when I see it, and I can do verbal gymnastics with the word itself.
But I cannot flash to beaches I’ve visited. I have no visual, audio, emotional or otherwise sensory experience. I have no capacity to create any kind of mental image of a beach, whether I close my eyes or open them, whether I’m reading the word in a book or concentrating on the idea for hours at a time—or whether I’m standing on the beach itself.
And I grew up in Miami.
This is how it’s always been for me, and this is how I thought it was for you. Then a “Related Article” link on Facebook led me to this bombshell in The New York Times. The piece unearths, with great curiosity, the mystery of a 65 year-old man who lost his ability to form mental images after a surgery.
What do you mean “lost” his ability? I thought. Shouldn’t we be amazed he ever had that ability?
Neurologists at the University at Exeter in England showed the man a photo. Who is that? Tony Blair, of course. Brain scans showed the visual sectors of his brain lighting up.
Then they removed the photo and asked him to imagine Tony Blair. The man knew characteristics—his eye color, his hair—but he could not “see” the image in his mind’s eye. Brain scans showed the visual sectors didn’t activate this time. In fMRIs of other men, many of the same sectors activated whether the subjects were looking at a photo or simply imagining one.
The researchers gave the phenomenon a name. They combined the prefix “a,” meaning “absence of,” and “phantasia,” a Greek word you will recognize from childhood:
Aphantasia. The absence of fantasy.
Reading this article was extraterrestrial puberty. I walked in a doe-eyed human; at Tony Blair, the pustules sprouted; by the end, my voice had cracked and I breathed fire. Because as mystified as the reporter was with his patient, so I was with the reporter. Imagine your phone buzzes with breaking news: WASHINGTON SCIENTISTS DISCOVER TAIL-LESS MAN. Well then what are you?
I opened my Facebook chat list and hunted green dots like Pac-Man. Any friend who happened to be online received what must’ve sounded like a hideous pick-up line at 2 o’clock in the morning:
—If I ask you to imagine a beach, how would you describe what happens in your mind? —Uhh, I imagine a beach. What? —Like, the idea of a beach. Right? —Well, there are waves, sand. Umbrellas. It’s a relaxing picture. You okay? —But it’s not actually a picture? There’s no visual component? —Yes there is, in my mind. What the hell are you talking about? —Is it in color? —Yes….. —How often do your thoughts have a visual element? —A thousand times a day? —Oh my God.
I texted friend after friend that night, and together we eloped on journeys of the mind. It is not an easy thing to compare thought processes. It’s like trying to teach your dog to sit using nothing but a bowl of strawberries. But, often, it was a hell of a lot of fun.
Even after the Exeter study, I was certain that what we had here was a failure to communicate. You say potato, I say potato. Let me be clear: I know nobody can see fantastical images through their actual eyes. But I was equally sure nobody could “see” them with some fanciful “mind’s eye,” either. That was just a colorful figure of speech, like “the bee’s knees” or “the cat’s pajamas.”
Or “counting sheep.”
But I have now taken this journey with 74 friends and relatives, and I am certain the difference transcends language. Fully 71 of them described—in terms quite similar to one another—the experience of creating a mental image in their mind. (One friend, Chris Pan, told me he didn’t have time to imagine a beach but that he’d do it later. I have never heard a better sign of the times.)
Nearly every friend volunteered the words “picture” or “image” without prompting, a vernacular I would never think to use in describing my own experience. And is this “mental picture” in color? Of course it is—because the beach I visited was in color. But the very foundation of the question does not compute in my brain. It’s like asking me if the number seven has any stubble, or if the puppy is on a leash. What puppy?
I found three other people who shared my experience. Two are fellow Facebook engineers, Ben Maurer and Olaoluwa Okelola, both of whom shared some sense of lifelong “otherness” they could never pinpoint. We started a thread to compare our tics and quirks—it’s a lot of “YES!” and “exactly!!” and “wow you too?”—and I felt that transcendent warmth I’ve only known once before, when a dorky high school outcast in Florida stumbled on a group of California programmers who just seemed to “get him.”
It’s the feeling of finding your people.
Here are the top 20 questions I’ve gotten from friends and family.
1. Can you picture my face?
No. But it’s not personal.
2. So you don’t know what I look like?
I know facts about the characteristics of your face. If you have radiant blue eyes, I may have stored that information. I know the “essence” of your face, but I’m unable to project it visually in my mind because there’s no screen.
3. So you don’t recognize me when you see me?
I do. Exeter’s MRI results suggest that the process of putting a name to a face can be separated from the process of mentally generating a face from a name. In programming parlance, I have a hash table.
4. How about picturing something simpler, like a red triangle, or the table right in front of you?
I can’t even understand the question. I can think about the idea of a red triangle. But it’s blackness behind my eyes. Blackness next to my ears. Blackness in every nook and kindle of my brain.
6. Does this apply to other senses?
This is another question that doesn’t quite make sense to me. It didn’t even occur to me until people kept asking.
I can’t read this in Morgan Freeman’s voice, nor can I “hear” the theme song to Star Wars in any sort of “mind’s ear.”
I do have the ‘milk voice’—that flat, inner monologue that has no texture or sound, which we use to tell ourselves: “Remember to pick up milk.” I can “doo doo doo” in my milk voice and tell myself I’m singing the theme song to Star Wars. However, most of my friends and family describe what they “hear” as music—not as vivid as the real thing, to be sure, and not as many instruments—but “music” nonetheless. I would never describe my experience as such; it’s just the flavorless narrator, struggling to beatbox. And I’ve never had a song “stuck” in my head.

Virtual reality also seems redundant now.
More generally, I have no sensory experience in my mind of any discernible nature. Thinking about a beach doesn’t make me feel calm; thinking about a tarantula doesn’t give me goosebumps. I can’t “recall” the taste of pizza, the feel of velcro, or the smell of Ghirardelli Square. But it’s unclear how many other people can. In my surveys, mental imagery and audio were most common, followed by the ability to trigger a feeling in response (the joie de vivre of the beach, or spider shivers). Taste, touch, and smell trailed.
7. What is going through your mind all day, if not sights and sounds?
All narration, all the time. An infinite script of milk voice dialogue. When you read a sarcastic essay from me, it is a transcript of this voice.
8. Do you dream?
No, or I don’t recall them. I’ve had a couple dreams but there was no visual or sensory component to them. When I woke up, I just knew a list of “plot points” about things that happened. This is also how I digest fiction.
9. How do you imagine things?
First I think of a noun in my milk voice: cupcake. Then I think of a verb: cough. Finally an adjective: hairy. What if there was a hairy monster that coughs out cupcakes? Now I wonder how he feels about that. Does he wish he was scarier? Is he regulated by the FDA? Does he get to subtract Weight Watchers points whenever he coughs? Are his sneezes savory or sweet? Is the flu delicious?
If I don’t like the combination of words I’ve picked, I keep Mad Libbing until the concept piques my interest.
This has always struck me as an incredibly inefficient way to imagine things, because I can’t hold the scene in my mind. I have to keep reminding myself, “the monster is hairy” and “the sneeze-saltines are sitting on a teal counter.” But I thought, maybe that’s just how it is.
12. How many people have this experience?
It’s hard to know. A psychology professor’s survey of 2,500 people in 2009 suggested it affects 2%, but there haven’t been enough rigorous studies. Take an abridged survey in this BBC article. If you think you’re affected, email the head of the Exeter research team, Professor Adam Zeman, to join his effort. I’ve done so as well, and I’m looking forward to getting MRI results and funding future research.
Apparently geneticist Craig Venter is aphantasiac. Also check out Penn (of Penn and Teller) discussing his experience on his podcast (75:15) last year. His experience matches mine perfectly.
13. How do you write fiction if you can’t visualize scenes?
It is somewhat amazing to learn that I have given people an experience I myself have never accessed:
I “imagine” scripts conceptually as described earlier. It’s easier to write for characters that have already been realized on the screen, especially when so many of them share my dry, sarcastic personality. If you reread the Silicon Valley script, you’ll find it’s heavy on ideas (what if a lawyer had a clock that counted money not time? what if Erlich compiled interview questions while stoned?) and light on descriptive language. Same with the Theranos parody.
Overall, I find writing fiction torturous. All writers say this, obviously, but I’ve come to realize that they usually mean the “writing” part: They can’t stop daydreaming long enough to put it on the page. I love the writing and hate the imagining, which is why I churn out 50 dry essays for every nugget of fiction.
14. How do you design product interfaces if you can’t visualize them?
I’m strong at the conceptual aspect: Figure out how a function fits into the overall system; figure out the minimum set of features it requires; strip every other whisker. I’m weak at designing the aesthetics.
15. How do you play the piano?
I can identify notes in sheet music as well as I can identify your face. Once I’ve played a song enough, my fingers can find the keys without looking as well as yours can find F and J on a laptop. Obviously I don’t have perfect pitch, but most people don’t.
16. Can you draw?
No. This has been my rendition of a cat/dog/bird/Hugh Jackman/cupcake monster since I was 3:
17. Can you spell?
Yes, very well. But I don’t process it like this:
It feels more like muscle memory to me.
18. How do you navigate directions?
Barely, which has been a running joke in my family. I recall directions as a list of facts, like this.
Now that I’ve seen this Sixth Sense-style twist ending, friends and I have been “rewatching” the world to spot the hints I missed. So Tony Robbins really does want you to “picture” your six pack to get fired up, Brock? You really can visualize a future with your partner, Morin? When you daydreamed in class, Stephen, you really saw that frog in the tuxedo? Wait… THAT’S why it’s called “daydreaming”?!
He’s been dead the whole time.
An ex says I often complained that “it’s like my brain just doesn’t work this way” while trying to compose fictional scenes, a bizarre framing compared to other admissions that I was simply “bad at baseball” or “not street smart.” The dialogue is so on the nose that, if I read it in a script, I’d ding the writer for her assault on subtlety.
And, suddenly, fiction clicks. Paty says I used to worry that “I feel like I’m doing reading wrong.” Descriptive language in novels was important to her but impotent to me; I skip it as reflexively as you skip the iTunes Terms of Service. Instead, I scour fiction like an archeologist: Find the bones.
The slender, olive-skinned man brushed the golden locks out of his hazel eyes. He was so focused on preparing for the assassination that he burned his tongue on the scalding cuppa joe (hazelnut, light cream).
That becomes: There’s an assassin.
I hurdle over paragraphs and pages, mowing down novels in one night because—while others make love to the olive-skinned assassin—I’m just fucking his skeleton. Some books are so fleshy they’re opaque: Lord of the Rings numbs. But Lord of the Flies gnaws, because I could meditate on the idea of society-gone-wild forever. Animal Farm is awesome. 1984. The splendor of Hogwarts is lost, but the idea of a dementor is brain fuel. And 2 + 2 = 5.
Nobody likes an author who shows off, of course. But friends tell me it is the written imagery—when done well—that delivers the very joy of reading. I can’t understand that, but I finally understand this: You really are annoyed with the actor in 50 Shades of Grey. It’s really not how you pictured him in the book.
Exploring this with friends has been hilarious and maddening and surreal. When I gave the beach test to Brit, she replied: Umm, have you seen my Facebook cover photo?

I had not.
But above all, strangely, I feel relief. It is vindication in some lifelong battle against an enemy I could never find.
I’ve always felt an incomprehensible combination of stupid-smart. I missed a single question on the SATs, yet the easiest conceivable question stumps me: What was it like growing up in Miami?
I don’t know.
What were some of your favorite experiences at Facebook?
I don’t know.
What did you do today?
I don’t know. I don’t know what I did today.
Answering questions like this requires me to “do mental work,” the way you might if you’re struggling to recall what happened in the Battle of Trafalgar. If I haven’t prepared, I can’t begin to answer. But chitchat is the lubricant of everyday life. I learned early that you can’t excuse yourself from the party to focus on recalling what you did 2 hours ago.
So I compensate. Ask about Miami and I’ll tell you, almost to a syllable:
I didn’t love it. It’s very hot, the people there aren’t ambitious at all. Also everyone is kind of angry, there’s like a lot of road rage. It’s fun to visit but I basically went as far away as I could for college, ha ha.
Facebook?
It was awesome getting to be there in the early days. I remember I would practically run to work in the mornings because I was so excited to share ideas with the team. There’s really no better feeling than seeing someone in a coffee shop using your work.
These lines are practiced. They are composites of facts I know and things I’ve read. I perform them out of body, with the same spiritual deadness that you might recount the Battle of Trafalgar.
And if you ask about my day, there’s a good chance that—having had no time to prepare—I’ll lie to you.
It is hard not to feel like a sociopath when you’re lying about how you spent your Monday and you don’t even know why. And there is a sadness, an unflagging detachment that comes from forgetting your own existence. My college girlfriend passed away. Now I cannot “see” So-Youn’s face or any of the times we shared together.
I have, in fact, no memories of college.
I once proposed to Paty that, since we were visiting my brother in DC anyway, let’s train over to the Big Apple and see Les Misérables. She said, we did that last year—for my birthday.
Often I ask my oldest friend to tell me about my childhood. Stephen and I joke that we’re the couple in The Notebook, but there’s an undercurrent of: Am I an idiot?

It is hard not to feel like a sociopath when you’re lying about how you spent your Monday and you don’t even know why.

I’ve always chalked this up to having “bad experiential memory,” a notion I pulled out of thin air because “bad memory” doesn’t fit: I can recite the full to-do list of software I’m building. On a childhood IQ test, my best performances were on Coding and Digit Span, both memory-driven. Given an increasingly long string of random numbers, I hit the test ceiling by repeating and then reversing 20 digits from memory on the fly. My three worst performances were on Picture Completion, Picture Arrangement, and Object Assembly. I couldn’t put the damn images in order to save my life.

My IQ test, the Wechsler-III. It is unclear if we can trust an IQ examiner who misspells “deprecated.” Also, is it normal for them to comment on a little boy’s looks? Mom, I feel bad.
Perhaps none of this is aphantasia. But when I ask a friend how he how-was-your-days, he gives me a tour of the visualizations in his mind. The spaghetti bolognese; the bike ride through the marsh; the argument with the boss, and the boss’s shit-eating grin, and gosh how I’d love to punch him in the mouth, and can’t you just see it now? He says that looking back on his life is like paging through a Google Image search sorted by “most engaging.” He tells me that when he’s on the road, and loneliness knocks, and the damn Doubletree bed is a little more wooden than usual, he replays the time they tried to make sushi together—but the rice kept falling apart!—and we couldn’t stop laughing!—and did you know it burns when sake spews out your nose?—and that’s when she feels closer.
I wonder if it’s why I have such an easy time letting go of people.

Is It Really Obvious?

I learned what it means to count sheep from a friend who was also teaching his daughter.
That is ethereal. Musical. Hysterical. Eye-rollable rom-com mix-up stretched past the point of plausible. Oh but when you said—oh I thought you meant that—Ohhhh! Haha! How could you not know? What did you do when mom told you to tend the flock at midnight?
Well, here’s a little Sixth Sense ending of your own: The final member of Aphantasiacs Anonymous turned out to be my mother.
Imagine that.
Some people don’t find out until they’re 50. Some never do. How close did I come to asking the right question all these years, only to stumble on a Facebook article? Brand new writer has no imagination! Oculus on the eyes, blind in the mind! The clickbait headlines write themselves, and maybe next time your jaded ass should bite. You never know.
Before I told her what was going on, Doriane offered this:
I think what makes us human is that we know we’re the galactic punchline, but we can still laugh at the setup. The cosmos got me good on this one. How beautiful that such electrical epiphany is not just the province of the child. And were the bee’s knees real, too? And have the cats worn pajamas all along?
I don’t think so.
But if I see it, I’ll be sure to tell my people. ❧
 You can read the Blake’s post in its entirety by clicking the link below.

https://www.facebook.com/notes/blake-ross/aphantasia-how-it-feels-to-be-blind-in-your-mind/10156834777480504/

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About Stephen Liddell

I am a writer and traveller with a penchant for history and getting off the beaten track. With several books to my name including a #1 seller, I also write environmental, travel and history articles for magazines as well as freelance work. Recently I've appeared on BBC Radio and Bloomberg TV and am waiting on the filming of a ghost story on British TV. I run my own private UK tours company (Ye Olde England Tours) with small, private and totally customisable guided tours run by myself!
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10 Responses to Aphantasia – To have a blind mind’s eye

  1. Francis says:

    I’m quite opften accused of wandering into the realms of fantasy. After reading your post I feel a bit happier about that!

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  2. Ankur Mithal says:

    you come up with strange and strangely interesting things to write about 🙂

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  3. modestly says:

    I found out about this recently. I have that aphantasia. Its no biggy as its the only life I know, and it feels normal to me. there are sadnesses – I couldn’t understand for a long time -decades – why i had no memory of childhood. Now I have to look at photos to see my own children as small children. I don’t have a memory of my dads face, and he is dead. But its wrong to assume we have a less than interesting inner life Its just different to yours. I read voraciously – but its ideas and characters that interest me rather than plot. I can focus amazingly , without distraction. Interesting post. And I did that questionnaire at Exeter. Did one the other day for a scientist in Toronto too. Exciting developments in understanding brain work.

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    • Thank you for commenting and offering your insight on things. I can imagine that being able to focus well must have its advantages.

      I’m sure I have an idea about experiencing things differently, I recently wrote how due to having monocular vision, I have very advanced hearing.

      In an ideal world it would be nice to see as most others do but I do enjoy my super-hearing.

      Medicine is moving so quickly, it would be interesting to see what progress occurs in the coming years.

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  4. Paul says:

    I am also one of these aphantasics. I found out about it a couple of weeks ago. Like modestly said, it’s no big deal. It seems to be a spectrum. I can see some images just before I fall asleep (hypnagogic state, I guess), and I know I can see when I dream though I can’t remember any of the actual images except for those few seconds before coming fully awake. When I think of an image that has emotional overtones, like an image of my parents (they’re both deceased), I can see portions of it for a split second then it’s gone. I can hear some of the Imperial March from Star Wars (for example) in my head but I hear it more as a vibration. It’s possible I’m remembering what it’s like to hum it instead. Other people can’t see in dreams or see any images in the hypnagogic state, from what I’ve read about it.

    I’m convinced it’s an internal brain communications problem. This is hard to describe, but I can think of an object without being able to see it. I can tell it’s there in front of me (in my imagination) but I can’t see it. I can even rotate it or deform it in some way, and I “feel” the shape rotating or deforming as it should, though I still can’t see it in any way. If I spent the time, I could probably picture my house and walk through it mentally, “feeling” it around me, but not seeing anything but the insides of my eyelids. This makes me think that the portion of the brain that is creating the images is blocked from projecting them on the canvas of my “mind’s eye”. Maybe it’s a firewall issue or a burned out projector bulb 🙂

    I think it’s why I did well with abstract mathematics, at least at the undergraduate level. Once you get far enough into it, it gets harder and harder to visualize. Not as much of a problem for me at that stage, I had already built work-arounds for not visualizing decades before that.

    Anyway, very interesting article.

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  5. IsyLLiS says:

    I had no idea that something like that even existed. I agree with what ‘modestly’ says. We have only one life and we make do with what we have. 🙂

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    • I know. It’s something everyone else takes for granted as I suppose others do for hearing, seeing or mobility. I think that is the best attitude to have after all if don’t appreciate what we have then we spend all our time being angry, sad or jealous about those things we don’t have.

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